Friday, 31 December 2004

In a blink of the giant's eye, wish it will come true

Azam tahun baru? New Year resolution? That would be the 2nd most popular question for the past few days (Sorry, this time Tsunami is the most popular question). My answer to that will always be:-

1. I don't have any, which always end up with a huge debate on why I should have at least one. (actually, I have but why would you care to know?)

2. Live a better life than now.. which also end up with a huge discussion on why I should make it more specific. (I have, and if you keep bugging me, you will never get to know it)

3. World Peace. Although I laugh at that phrase everytime I said it. (was thinking if I should even wave hands a-la Abby Abadi when saying that.. err.. Nahh..)But seriously, shouldn't we all make that as a our resolution now?

And because of these 3 'common' remarks from me, (it is as common as my "lepas raya" answer to the marriage question), some people look at me somebody who didn't take life seriously. (wow, well done Houdini.. You can judge people from just a remark)

OK. For the first time, here's to getting a bit 'serious' in life. What would I hope for in 2005..

1. I'm bouncing far away from any misery I experienced in 2004 and live a much better life.

2. Making a significant impact to people's lives no matter how insignificant I am to them after that.

3. Having to create new things for the benefit of the people.

4. Able to do my job well, creatively, dynamic and with substance. For that I hope I'll not be 'zalim' towards other people as well. With power, comes great responsibility. (Oh yeah.. I got a new job for 2005 and it will be interesting)

5. Sometimes, small thing does matter and I intend to make as many people as possible aware of such thing. Do not neglect little things especially when it comes to the matter of heart and mind.

By all that, I would just best to summarize it as

"I want to be a better person. I will be a better person and I'll make sure everybody that are already a part of my life (directly and indirectly) will be much better and wonderful than they already are."

Happy New Year everybody. Heads up. Keep the spirit high. May this be a humble start for a better year ahead. Aminn..




This just came in... ABC News have named 'Bloggers' as their 'People of the Year' for 2004. Congratulations everybody.

Thursday, 30 December 2004

Road Trip

We've seen so many road safety campaign isn't it? From one reminder to another and still we see so many reckless and rude drivers and motorist around. How far does this campaign actually works? Do we really affected by the campaign? Are we motivated to drive safely after listening or watching the campaign?

I still remember 'Pandu Cermat, Jiwa Selamat', 'Pakai Tali Pinggang Keledar Anda' and 'Maut tidak mengenal mangsa' back then. Now, the campaign are 'Jalanraya bukan tempat berlumba' and 'Ingatlah orang tersayang'. OK, there's a slight change on the angle but still, does it really work?

Let's just do a reverse. Since none of it really work for those that matters, and as we all know, the more you forbid them, the more tempting for them to do it. Let's just encourage it.

Here are a few example:-

"Kenderaan Anda, Nyawa Anda. Tiada siapa yang merindui bila anda tiada"

"Teruskan berlumba haram. Kematian anda menguntungkan negara"

"Kemalangan anda semua akan mencerna ekonomi negara. Kami bangga."

How about that? Can that work? Hopefully, by campaigning this way, we don't have to deal with reckless drivers and motorists everyday.What do you think?


p.s I've already collected 2 huge trashbag of used shoes to donate to the Tsunami victims. Any organisation is willing to take such things? I'm also been planning to go the village affected myself. Anybody want to join me?

New Year's Eve Celebration cancelled as directed by our Prime Minister. More news on Star Online. With this, I hope we could all do our part together. Amiinnn..

Tuesday, 28 December 2004

Let's give 2005 a wonderful start.

Here's the deal. There is only 4 days left and I need all your cooperation to make this happen.

Some of you might be aware that the Asia Blog Award 2004 voting session is now on till 31st December 2004. This nominations are based on suggestions and promotions by other fellow bloggers (just to make sure you know they did not nominate themselves to be in it).

The Nominees for Malaysian Best Blog 2004 are :-

1. Macvaysia - Darul Fahim
2. Mental Jog - Exercise Your Mind
3. Rajan
4. Jeff Ooi - Screenshots..
5. Pok Ku - Di Bawah Rang Ikang Kering
6. The Hustler Diaries
7. Nik Nazmi
8. Suanie - As Suanie Sees It
9. TV Smith - Dua Sen
10. B*tchingLOG...not a weBLOG

As democratic as I can be to link all the nominees for your reading pleasure, it is my honor to plead each and every one of you who read this entry to vote for Pok Ku as this year's Best Malaysian Blog.

For those of you who've known Pok Ku or have been to his blog, you would agree that he's the best candidate to accept this award. For those of you who have not been to Pok Ku's blog, it about time you visit the blog and you'll see that there's nothing more Malaysian than what's written on his Blog. If there's anybody would like to know how a Malaysian blog is, than Pok Ku's blog would make the best example.



This is a link on how you can do your bit in helping the Tsunami Victims. I'm hoping to contribute more but this is the least that I can do so far. Supporting the effort started by others. May Allah guide us through this sorrow. Amiinn..

Saturday, 25 December 2004

Joy to the World

Every year, the family will have dinner on Chrismas Eve and another dinner, a day after Chrismas. No, we did not do this because of Chrismas but instead, we did this to celebrate the birthday of two wonderful ladies in the family, my aunt Masri Omar and my beloved mother Pon Hj Othman.

Aunty Masri as I call her, is a sweet lovable person. Never once have I ever heard her shouting or raise her voice. Not even when scolding her children when they were little kids. Instead she speak softly, talk to them nicely and with full of love. Surprisingly, that works.

Every guest that comes tho their house will be treated special. She'll make sure everything is comfortable while they're there and all happy when they leave. Meet her and you'll see how wonderful this lady is.

Here's about my mom. Another wonderful lady (who cares if I'm biased, she's my mother)who brought me ot this world. As a typical mother, she'll definitely be worried about all her children upbringing. The good things and bad things that we do will somehow affect her. The worry part of her can sometimes got her being overprotective to all of us but never once she dictated any of us on making our own choice, which got us siblings decided that if there's any problems, as much as possible solve it on our own and not to get her all worried.

It will be my mom's 61st birthday on 26th December. The first birthday for her to celebrate with her 2 granddaughter, one eye blinded for glaucoma and a plastic pouch attached due to her colon cancer surgery earlier this year. It is obvious how weak her body is but never her spirit.

Happy Brithday Mama. I know it's hard to raise 3 boys with attitudes but you did it very well. You are never a bad mother and we will always love you. Everybody in the family loves you very much.

All my love to these 2 wonderful ladies in the family.

Happy Birthday.


Addition :

Happy Birthday to..

1. Uncle Rahim - 1st Dec
2. Cousin Fifi - 13th Dec (you're already back in UK on your Birthday)
3. Zura Syazween (niece) - 23rd Dec (Sorry, tak boleh belanja this year.)
4. Yasmin (niece) - 26th Dec (laa.. sama lak birthday dengan Tok Pon dia)


Cousin Ain and Hubby - 27th Dec (Wow, first anniversary celebrate in Germany)

Tuesday, 21 December 2004

It's Easy If You Try

I've been watching cartoons lately. As many cartoons as I can. From the old Disney, Japanese Anime, Spongebob Squarepants, Doraemon and Futurama. After a few series of these programmes, it got me thinking, "How the hell these people come up with such whacky yet attractive enough to watch?" Where are all these ideas comes from? What were they thinking when coming up with such ideas that proves to attract millions of viewers especially kids?

All these questions, I then refer back to our own products. Local stuffs. How come we still have a long way to go. Don't blame on the technology here. You don't need a superhigh technology to create an addictive cartoon like Doraemon. You don't even need what they have in Pixar, Disney or Dreamworks now to create Spongebob or even Powerpuff. Yet, we still left behind.

The more I think about it. I realise one thing. Most of our product lacks of imagination. We are creative in designs and artwork. I have no doubt about that but, somehow our imaginations and creativity on the content is weak. We didn't try to think from the view of the audience and how they would relate to the story, we merely taking a shortcut and instead, being the direct manipulating adult as we always been, forces those kids to accept what we have to offer using our perspectives.

It is time to come up with much better cartoons and kids programme locally isn't it? If we're seriously thinking about getting our content accepted internationally, I don't think just by being expert of the softwares and the tools are enough. It's like playing god, create humans but without soul. Isn't it?

Get more creative and imaginative people to work on it too. Without good content, all those excellent and superb multimedia skills of fellow Malaysians will only end up to waste and once again we succeed to prove that our local product sucks... which is not entirely true since we don't look into problems analytically and we don't solve these problems creatively.

I would like to suggest that once a while, we bring back the little kid spirit in us, watch those cartoon and try to see what they saw on those programmes that got their attention. Isn't it?

As John Lennon would say..

"you may say I'm a dreamer
but I'm not the only one"


One more thing, here's another video. I know it's not new. Those of you who've been listening to Mix FM might be really tired of this song. (the effect of radio overplay) But, the song is nice. The lyric is great and seeing this video, it show's how the record label is having more faith on this band as the videos from the other 2 singles of Maroon 5.. is kinda getting low budget as they are still new at that time. Way to go Maroon 5.

Saturday, 18 December 2004

First Malaysian on the Moon.

Just got back from visiting Azlan Abu Hassan's home studio this evening (at last. After a promise made to visit his place a year ago.. sorry Lan).

Interesting place I must say. Comfy, well-planned and nice surroundings. I'm definitely to visit that place again. The studio was great too. Small setup, but well equip.

OK, that's not the point. He insist me in getting myself an anti-oxydant scanning as the scanner was at his place for one day. The BioPhotonic Scanner, produced by Pharmanex is a machine that would scan the anti-oxydant level of my body.

Not to my surprise. With my unstable diet and way of living for the past 2 months. The result was bad. As average Malaysians would always be around the second lowest level out of the 5 level, I was actually at the lowest level category. (well, I'm unique, not average.. alasan..) With that, I know I need a better diet, eat more fruits and vegetables and buck up my life fast.

Enough of that. He then show's me a documentary produced by Fox entitled, Conspiracy Theory: Did We Land on the Moon?

I've heard this question before and I've heard many people discussing about this issue before but never had I heard such convincing facts about the topic like those shown on the documentary. Among the points are :-

1. The flag is waving when there's no air on the moon.

2. There's no stars around when they're actually around a very clear sky

3. The shadows is not parellel when the only light they have is the sun.

4. The photo taken was professional perfect when the camera was actually hook to the chest and there's no viewfinder on the camera.

5. You lead a thick lead to prevent you from being affected by high radiation on earth but you only need a few pieces of aluminium as a space suit to protect you from the highest radiation exposure.

If you got the chance to watch the documentary, do watch it and give it a thought. It does make sense. Although, NASA will definitely deny it even with their own lives.

Freaky. Isn't it? Hey, I'm no expert.

"If you believed they put a man on the moon, man on the moon
If you believe there’s nothing up my sleeve, then nothing is cool"

- Man On The Moon - REM

Monday, 13 December 2004

Making the best out of the situation

It's been quite some time since I last watched any movie. Whether in cinema or just by watching DVD at home. Finally, last Friday night, I manage to watch 'The Terminal'. A movie that I have been wanting to watch since the day I read the synopsis.

Talented indeed, Tom Hanks did a spectacular job as Victor Navorski, who actually stuck at the airport as he can't go back to his homeland as the country is considered non-existant nor can he get in USA as he is at that moment a person with no citizenship.

Enough of the obvious, it's not that situation that facinates me. It's the human value within the story that got me hooked to the movie till the end. The wonderful and sincere heart of Victor, that won the hearts of the people working inside the airport. The friendship between Victor, Gupta - the Indian cleaner, Enrique - the food vehicle driver and Joe. The Love crush and be crushed of Victor and Amelia, the matchmaking of Enrique and Torres, and the one and only reason for Victor to visit New York and go through all those hell to make sure he will get it done.

Humanities are everywhere in this movie. It is nicely crafted and elaborated in the script and put into visual in a way that will surely touch our heart. Whether all those values of love, sincerity, friendship portrays are signs of what this world is lacking of or maybe that is just another false hope?

Only by digging into our own hearts that we will know what will the answer be.


p.s Oh yes, the Victor-Amelia crush. Does that also prove that wonderful guy will never deserve to be loved by a women? She went back to her married boyfriend after he confess isn't it? Just a thought.

Tuesday, 7 December 2004

When all things seems going the wrong way.

Sorry for the long silence. It was not my intention to do so. Things kind of messy the past week.

The past week was a horrible week for me. Almost none of what I want to do and plan to do went as planned. In fact, it went the opposite. With obstacles and problem that got me feeling fragile and numb. There's even a point where I almost break down and lose hope.

Actually, nobody actually knows what's going on with me. I didn't tell anybody about it for a simple reason that other people have their own problems and they are not as crazy as I am to listen to other people's problem for the sake of easing the burden. So, I took it up alone as usual, although this time it's harder than anything I faced before.

Well, things are more stable now (if not better). At least there's no artificial chest pain or heavy heads. Hopefully, this would be the starting point for a better life ahead.

The past few days, I was frequently glued to this one song by the band Spider. (by the way, they are nominated as one of the favourite Malaysian Artiste for the MTV Asia Awards 2005)No, it is not any of the song you heard on the radio but one of the song in their new album. What got me glued to it is a part of the lyric from the song..

"Sebelum gugur tercalar, jiwa parah
Jangan kau gugurkan air mata

Sebelum putus tali Tuhan yg Esa
Jangan kau berputus asa"

.. and so, I let this part of the lyric live in me. Let it be no matter how hard life would be for me, I'm sticking to all my dreams and my hopes. Some might seems impossible but I'm still be longing for everything that I ever wanted for...Hopefully, one day..all these dreams will come true. Aminn...

Sorry again for the long silence. It was unintentional.

Monday, 22 November 2004

Back in the Mud Valley

Yes, I'm back in KL. The journey that took about 8 hours from JB to KL. And NO, it's not the heavy traffic that give the additional 5 hours to the normal 3 hours KL-JB route. Instead, I take my time and visit my uncles and aunties that I didn't manage to visit earlier.

My first stop right after I left the house is to my aunt's house in Bandar Baru Uda. The house is rather quiet this year. It's the first year Mak Normah and my cousin Ella celebrating Aidilfitri without my Uncle around. Pak Mahmor (refer to my July entry)passed away earlier in July. He was having heart problems and passed away in the ambulance while they were tranferring him from JB to Batu Pahat.

I then drove all the way to Segamat. The hometown of my mom. The place where the huge family of Tuan Hj Othman is proud to be. My first stop in Segamat was my friend's house in Kg Pauh. He's been waiting all day for me to arrive alright (sorry Epit, aku sengaja meleceh-leceh nak balik KL) Epit is my travel companion for this Raya Trip. We drove back together. Drop him at his parent's house as I continue my journey back to JB. Now, doing the opposite, I have to pick him up on my way back to KL. It's part of the deal.

As Epit join me, we then continue visiting my uncles in Segamat. As we start visiting the houses, it was already after Maghrib. We went to my uncle's house in Kg Gubah, where my only Pak Bakar and my cousin, Kak Ri was around and had a light dinner there. (Kak Ri insisted for us to have dinner first)

Then we went to visit another uncle of mine which is just a few blocks away after crossing my late grandfather's house. Pak Ali, Mak Milah with my cousin Kak Fizah and her childrens. It was a short visit there as the time is almost 10pm and we still have a long journey ahead.

Usually, the visit to all the relatives in Segamat will be done on third day of Hari Raya. Unfortunately for me, this year, I'm not able to join my parent and my brother's family in this annual Convoy as I had problems with my car. (Saja la tu.. nak merajuk time-time raya ni). To avoid feeling guilty and regrets later, I make a point that no matter what time it is, I'll definitely visit them on my way back to KL.

So, the journey was a smooth one. Not a single problem occur and I reach KL around 1 am.

With that, it's official that I'm back in KL and my Hari Raya entry will be up as soon as I got a few pictures uploaded. (Still need a few things to get that done)


p.s Hari Raya is always about family, about your loved ones, and about remembering who we are. Isn't it?

Friday, 19 November 2004

Put This to A Test

I read this on Sleeksexycat's Lair and found it rather interesting to know what sort of blogger I am. Here's the result...

You Are a Pundit Blogger!

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few

OK.. Hold it. Run to the nearest toilet and puke!. Hahahaha...

What's yours?? I wonder.

Oh.. By the way Sleek. Your result is true. You have that quality on your blog.

Sunday, 14 November 2004

Minal Eid Wal Fa'izzin

It's always been a victory celebration. That's what Aidilfitri is all about. Celebrating the victory after a month of countering hunger and other desires. Achieving to do all that should makes us more humble than before.

After 12 hours of road trip, I'm now back in JB. You might wonder why it took 12 hours from KL to JB. Well, it has been like that for me for the past 3 or 4 years of Raya. I will always take my own sweet time to drive back to JB by using the kampung roads once I entered Johore. This time, the route would be through Tangkak, Segamat, Labis up till Yong Peng (coincidently, this is the road that lies beside the famous Gunung Ledang), before I hit back using PLUS highway.

What's great about going through this routes? Enjoying the late night breeze while watching each and every kampung house lit with colorful lights and surrounded by well-lit pelita. Things that you would not see everyday especially when you're living in big towns.

I guess this year's Raya is not a great one for me. I'm not eager or even prepared for Hari Raya this year. Don't ask me about my Raya mood. It's not even near to having one.

But, as I drove along the kampung roads, watching the well-lit houses, some with kids playing 'bunga api' around the compound. Some with a few cars arriving to the house, indicating that their children just arrived home from the big towns. It comes back to my senses what Hari Raya is all about.

It's not about new clothes. It's not about how much you can spend. It's not even about all the food you can have and eat. But, it's about spending quality time with all the people that matters to you. People who you consider as family. People who are significant to you life.

As for this, I would like to wish all of you EID AL-MUBARAK.. MINAL EID WAL FA'IZZIN. Thank you for being around in my life and being more than just another friend.

Those of you who knows me long before this blog. I'm honored to have friends like you.

Those of you who just got ot know me. It's also an honor to have additional people like you in my life. Hope we could get to know each other better.

Those of you who will be Celebrating Hari Raya in JB. You're invited to my home in Taman Tasek JB. The door is all open for all of you.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA everybody.. FORGIVE ME for all the things I've done to hurt any of you. It was unintentional...



Here's a thought. This year's Aidilfitri would be a mark of history to some of us..

1. This would be the first Aidilfitri for a few of us with their new born baby.

2. This would be the first Aidilfitri for some away from the family.

3. This would be the last Aidilfitri for a few others as a bachelor.

Hope you'll remember this Aidilfitri as a mark of your history..


Friday, 5 November 2004

The Love, The Hope and The Reality

"I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you"

I'm exposed to all kinds of music since I was a kid. Introduced mostly by my large but close circle of my relatives. Most of my cousins are much older than me. It's from them that I learn to know about The Beatles, Queen, Black Sabbath, Iron Maiden, to the pop and new wave acts like Duran Duran, Spandau Ballet, Wham and Simply Red.

One of the band that got my attention is Bon Jovi. The first song that got me hooked with Bon Jovi is 'Living On A Prayer' and unlike some other bands that fades away the longer they are in the music business, this band still facinates me with their songs.

As I walk through their past works, I realise one fact about Bon Jovi. All songs are closely related to your normal everyday life. Their singles is all about the realities of life, about love and about hope.

As bad as the realities sound in most of their songs, they will always counter back with a few more songs of good love and and of hope. Simply said, no matter how bad the realities treat you, you should always hold on to your love and hope.

Just listen to a few of their singles from the past album such as 'These Days', 'I Believe', 'Living on A Prayer' to the latest few such as 'It's my life' and 'Everyday', you'll see that all these songs are much related to the 3 elements I mentioned above.

I guess Jon Bon Jovi and the rest of the members (Ritchie Sambora, Tico Torres and David Bryan) are pretty much down-to-earth people who can relate peoples' lives to thiers.

Maybe with that attitude got them together as band for more than 20 years, no matter how popular one member can be as individuals. Even with their own solo projects in hand, they are still together as a band.

Here's a good example of a great band. I wish to see more bands acting in such a way.. especially in Malaysia.

It has been an exhausting few weeks on personal matters to many of us isn't it? Just sit back and think of good things for once. Shall we? Enjoy the video.

"Goodbye to all those rainy nights.. They're gone
Goodbye, so long, I'm moving on"


Sunday, 31 October 2004

ATTENTION : Halloween is posponed due to the unavoidable situation of the all hantus..

"Hahaha... Camna nak celebrate halloween? Hantu semua kena ikat. Lepas raya je la boleh celebrate. OK tak?"

That's not really want I to write about. But, in the name of spooky, this week theme in most blogs is either melancholic or related to M Nasir and his work. Yes, I found interesting story about this ex-boss of mine in Ninie's blog. Than went through Yamm's blog and read about how his song is haunting her mind till now. I guess lovely melody, combines with beautiful lyrics can affect our mind as it will get our heart to love it.

From what I experienced, people in Luncai Emas are talented in doing so. From M Nasir, S Amin Shahab, Loloq , Seth.. to the new batch such as Tam Spider , Nafie and Mail. All groomed to be talented in a very intelligent way for music.

Here are a few of what we call "ayat power" in their songs..

"Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku
Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kau kan jadi milikku jua..."

from : Bagaikan Sakti (OST Puteri Gunung Ledang : 2004)

"Biar malam mentertawakan aku,
Biar habis badanku dimamah rindu,
Namun membiarkan ingatanku luput dari mengenangmu,
Itu sama sekali takkan ku lakukan"

"Habis apa lagi yg harus kuhadapi,
Untuk memiliki jiwa sepertimu kasih,
Dalam seribu tak bisa ku temu,
Sejuta hanya satu,
Mimpikah aku kali ini?"

from : Aduhai Kasih Aduhai (Canggung Mendonan : 1994)

"Dan jika kudiberi pilihan, sayang
Antara seluruh harta dunia dan engkau, sayang
Sedikit pun tak berganjak, sayang
Kau tetap pilihanku..."

from : Semakin Nyata (Solo : 1988)

OK. I'll stop here before I got anybody feeling all melancholic and lying on the bed alone while staring at the ceiling and think about nothing else (and yes, tangan atas dahi dan mengeluh ala drama melayu).. Or get anybody all puked up. Either way, Bahasa Melayu is a beautiful languange. It does express emotions in a beautiful way. Maybe we should realise that..

SO... Which malay lyrics affect you most? I would love to know.

TRICK OR TREAT people....

Friday, 29 October 2004

It's an Emergency.. We Now Declare War!!

"In the name of Festive Promotion, we are at the state of war. Stand up and choose the right package for you."

Have you read the newspapers these past 2 weeks? No, not the news in particular but the prepaid starter pack campaign from all the telcos.

It started out with Digi promoting their new starter pack at RM18. Then comes Celcom with their RM20 starter pack and lastly Hotlink with their own RM20 starter pack. All of which with preloaded airtime of RM10 and additional RM10 upon sending over the registration card and all in the name on 'Festive Promotion'.

To make the war heater. Last Monday Digi even announced thier new reloading scheme which allows you to reload at any amount you can afford starting from RM1. Even better, Digi Prepaid user can also transfer their preloaded credit to another Digi Prepaid user from as low as RM3 as long as you have a minimum of RM20 in your credit balance.

So what's with this new war among the telcos? My assumption is that the market is now too saturated that you're now targeting young new user to have their own lines. If possible, have 2 or 3 lines in hand.

I'm expecting even more 4 year old kids will have their own handphone after this campaign. Using their 'duit raya' to buy the handphone . The telco will then start launching their new SMS services for these kids and you'll know where these leads after that.

Parents beware. These war will affect small kids from now. *evil grin*


Tuesday, 26 October 2004

Open your heart and the mind will take it course..

Remember the time when Multimedia Super Corridor (MSC) was a big hype and almost all companies seek to be labeled as MSC status company? (which incude a few engineering companies which sole business are only on servicing air-conditioners).

OK, that's not the point. I remember those were the days when Government are looking into the possibilities of creating license for anybody who wanted to own a website and also censorship regulations for all web content.

The news yesterday (25th October 2004), as I read at The Star Online stated that the Energy, Water and Communications Ministry has decided that the government will uphold its commitment to non-censorship of the Internet, but no violations of the law will be tolerated, as said at the launch of the Communications and Multimedia Content Code.

However, the minister describe the code as 'a test for self discipline'. (hmm.. let see how that goes..)

The brighter part of the news is, the ministry, with the establishment of Communications and Multimedia Content Forum (CMCF), will now also be working on formulating ways to encourage the growth of local content development citing that there was a “dire need to recognise the creative industry.”

“There is a need to ensure that creative businesses have access to appropriate financial support, and that the financial sector is aware of opportunities and benefits of investing in the creative industry,”said Professor Tony Lee, Chairman of CMCF.

At last people, there's some light for the creative people in Malaysia. Hope the light does not fade away.

With less restriction over freedon of expression and speech, let's hope Malaysians can be more creative and be more appreciative over creativity. Yes, it's not as 'professional' as being a lawyer or accountant or doctor or engineer (no offense).. but this is no longer the 60's and anything you do with all your heart and mind IS professional.

You can learn to be creative BUT remember, talent is God given.


Friday, 22 October 2004

Road Less Travelled

I love travelling. Not that I have a lot of money to travel but I love to travel. From travelling the modern way of using travel agent to travel by my own creativity and my own means. I've done it.

I believe the most exciting thing in travelling anywhere is when you go to the road less travelled. Places within reach that you never expect to go in the first place. Things you will never experience unless you let your mind free and give it a try.

One of such example is my trishaw tour. Everytime I saw trishaws (beca, basikal roda tiga or whatever you like to call them) around the area, it always intrigued me to get a ride. It's not the cheap thrill of riding the trishaw. It's not 'Seniman Bujang Lapuk' experience that got me excited (remember : first class pun sama, second class pun sama, saya penat mengayuh..)but, the stories by the trishaw peddlers about the town they had always lived in. I'm always facinated by their stories.

Road Less Travelled as I put it is in fact a journey with them along the streets never be seen with any bus ride. A journey experiencing the town first hand by a true local guide. The passion of the people in certain things you never knew. Best of all, understanding them more clearly on how they view to certain matters of life.

I've taken 2 rides in Malacca. Just cruising around the town and visit places that's not on any tourist brochure and a ride in Penang, where I could see places that never I thought would still exist in the 90's. Both rides are peddled by an old man, experienced enough to tell the stories of their place and the history of these places in their own way.

I wish I could do that again. All rides are done in the 90's. One thing I forgot to do is to keep a documentation of these rides. It would be great to share with all of you.

So here's my wish. I'll be keeping this 'Road Less Travelled' idea in mind (yes, shithead!!. you can steal my idea but you can;t steal my passion) and I'll be working to get this project on as soon as possible. I will start back in Malacca, I'll be crusing back in Penang and another trip in Singapore (wow.. I exactly named all 3 States of the straits). From there onwards, I will identify any other places with trishaw and seek my way to go there and document about it as well. All questions are ready, all angles to scoop on are set, just looking for a way to fund my personal project here.. Anybody interested?.. Interested to join me maybe?

I hope I could get this done. A piece of our shared culture will at least documented in a certain way.

Thursday, 14 October 2004

Still with me in my dreams..

There's a saying I heard.. "When you really missed someone, it hurts". I guess I understand the exactly what it means now. Later today, I was browsing through my MySpace, (which I can't remember the last time I logged in) I came across this one writing I posted back in June. Enjoy reading it...

Note : This is not my original writing. Something that I bump into and I thought of sharing it with others.. I guess what you feel is what you can't lie.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.

You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant.

Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.


Hey, it's not everyday you got to see me this side of me. Most of the time you won't. Oh well, I'm human after all.. Sorry if I made any of you puke.

RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK EVERYBODY.. May all the blessings with you..

Tuesday, 12 October 2004

Welcome Back to the Scene

Remember the year 1991. The year where local music scene made quite a huge impact. This is also the year where a great singer name Zainal Abidin released his first ever Solo album after leaving his former band Headwind and his album 'Hijau' came by storm to all of us. Masterminded by the magnificent duo of Mukhlis Nor and Roslan Aziz (yes kids.. Roslan Aziz is not a staff of 8TV to judge Malaysian Idol).. The aura and music of Zainal Abidin is not just another pop hit. It changes many things to our perception in the local music scene. First, it proves that you don't need a mushy love song as a first single to hit the market. Second, there's no such thing as urban song or 'kampung' song. If it's a good song, everybody, no matter who you are will appreciate it. Third, If you do it good enough, it's not just Malaysian love it, the international scene will recognise it too.

Now, he's back with his new album after almost 10 years without an album. You might have heard his pre-album single 'Gaia' on radio. Now, the next single titled 'Puteri' is on air. A magnificent pop ballad that could easily haunt you. Here's the lyric..

PUTERI - Zainal Abidin

Harum semerbak kasturi indah mewangi
Cantik rupa parasnya puteri di sinar maya
Cinta bukannya semata yang ku perlu zahirmu

Kini kau tiada lagi tinggallah aku sendiri
Rindu di hati ku ini tak dapat aku sembunyi
Entah bila kan kembali
Setelah kau pergi oh...

Malam ku dingin tiada pujuk rayumu
Ku kehilangan tawa mesramu itu
Oh puteri..
Malam ku dingin aku kehilanganmu
Mengertilah oh kekasihku
Oh.. puteri ku

Dengarkanlah rayuan (hati)
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu
Di dalam jaga aku keliru
Oh.. mengertilah

Malam ku dingin tiada pujuk rayumu
Ku kehilangan tawa mesramu itu
Malam ku dingin aku kehilanganmu
Kekasihku.. mengertilah oh kekasihku.. oh..

Kekasihku.. kembalilah..

Nice and very poetic indeed. Isn't it?.. To Zainal Abidin, Welcome back to the scene. The Malaysian music scene in dying need of great talents to show the way.

p.s I'm still waiting for my own copy of this new album to arrive. Come on people, apsal la slow sangat ni.


Thursday, 7 October 2004

Lost in Translation

Remember the good old times going to the movies? Remember how subtitles are so funny back then? Maybe it is still funny now. It's been a while since I last went to a cinema (the last movie I went was "something gotta give". Yup, ancient.. boohoo me). That's not the point. Just imagine how these phrases would sound if you translate ot directly into Bahasa Melayu.

What the hell happened here? - Neraka apa yg terjadi disini?

Cut the crap!!! - Potong tahi itu!!

Damn that bitch!! - Celaka anjing betina itu!!

God Damnit!! - Dilaknat tuhan!!

Keep the change - Simpan tukaran itu.

You have save my ass - Kau telah jimatkan punggung aku.

This is all bullshit!! - Ini semua tahi kerbau!!

They left in a flash - Mereka kekiri dengan pancaran kilat

Ready, aim, fire !! - Sedia, tuju, api!!

and many more..

Oh well, as if they want to pay a certified subtitlist for the job. As long as the profit is not affected.

Sorry guys, I really have nothing better to write for now
. Enjoy.

Thursday, 30 September 2004

PARAGON : You are all invited

Exists latest album is now on sale nationwide. The album titled 'Paragon' is their 9th studio album after 13 years in the music career. The album, which went through 7 months of recording process is the beat work put up by the band so far. Directing this album to a more progressive brit pop and alternative sounds like they have always been, this album is sure to win the hearts of many fans in Malaysia, Singapore, Brunei and Indonesia.

Among the tracks that would possibly becoming a hit are 'Hilang Dalam Ramai', 'Dosa Pada Dinda', 'Dengar Ella Menyanyi', 'Pilihan' and 'Hidup'.

Their first single 'Penisilin' is now playing on air. A well arranged track that combines progressive rock and some middle-eastern influence. It also feature Farihin Adbul Fatah for the Selawat voice.


They will be playing at these venues soon.. Come to catch their stunning performance.

Proton Track Karnival

Date : 1st October 2004 (Friday)
Venue : Pasir Gudang Race Circuit, Johore
Time : 8:00pm onwards

* other artiste performing includes Waheeda, Ezlynn and Zainal Abidin.

Dari Studio 1 (Live Recording Show)

Date : 3rd October 2004
Venue : ASTRO's Studio 1, Bukit Jalil
Time : 3pm onwards

* this is thier second Dari Studio 1 session after the first show 3 years back. Other band recording their session on this day is Spider.

p.s as typical as Malaysians can be. You might tend to judge this band before listening to them or based on only the 'radio friendly' singles. Well.. please don't. And if you want to give critism, please do AFTER you have listen to their album.

Those interested to have the band for shows, bookings can be made by calling or emailing me.For more info check out their Official Website.

Hope to see you at the show !!

Wednesday, 29 September 2004

The Height of Love

This is a true story about love, which happened weekend, when most people are concentrating on Anugerah Era.

Nubli is my nephew. My cousin's second eldest son. He is in his twenties now and studying in a college somewhere near Taman Maluri.

Three years ago, they found that Nubli had a kidney failure. Since then, his life has been going through the same routine... going in and out the hospital, in and out dialysis center and eating according to doctor's strict diet.

Until last Saturday, Nubli's life routine would change for the better. He will undergo kidney transplant to replace his failed kidney. Nubli is getting a new kidney for him.

After hours of surgery, Nubli finally got his new kidney. He was taken into ICU for right after the surgery for close monitoring on the post-surgery progress.

The kidney donor is also safe and stable. Although weakened due to the surgery, she was able to talk a few hours after the surgery. All she can think of is if the surgery went well and Nubli is safe. She is no other than Nubli's own mother, who I called Kak Amy.

I am thankful to God that Kak Amy and Nubli are safe and well. Kak Amy is just a housewife, with great talent in crafts and interior decoration. She is the official decorator and creative designer for hantaran of all the cousins wedding. Her husband, Abang Mat, works for the KTM.

A loving family indeed. Kak Amy has shown me the height of a mother's love to her children. For once, she literally put her life on the line in the hope that her son's life would be better.

At the time I wrote this entry, Kak Amy got discharged from the hospital a few hours earlier. Nubli, on the other hand had to live in the hospital for another few weeks until the doctor confirms that the kidney works properly on him.

I pray to Allah for all the blessings He could give to this family. As far as I know, this is the biggest sacrifice a mother, normal mortal mother had done for the sake of their children.

We all have, in one way or another, had an argument with our Mother. Haven't we? I am very sure if there is any of us, who claims he or she had never got into an argument, in any way, is a liar.

So, please.. think about it. No matter how many arguments you got into with your mom.. No matter how intense it could get to debate over certain personal issue with your mom. How her nagging could melt the earwax in your ears.. YOUR MOM LOVES YOU despite of all that.

Always remember that.. (and this is a remonder to me too..)


p.s. think of this, some of us don't even get to do all that or to feel all that.. be thankful that your mom is still alive to share her life with you.

Thursday, 23 September 2004

The Magical Moment.

I missed to write about my trip to the Cokelat Concert the other day. The crowd, although not as huge as expected was a great crowd. From the start till the end the band really manage to get the audiece jumping and singing to their song. With song like Karma, Segitiga, Benderaku, Dia... most of the audience could really sing to the tune. It should get more audience than Hoobastank gets last 2 months. UNfortunately.. diorang bukan mat salleh.. or bukan negro. Our city folks couldn't care less... It was at the point where they sing 'Jauh'.. the moment was magical. You could actually feel the magic in the air. Everybody suddenly focussed on the song and sing along to the tune. Mesmerised by the beauty if the melody..

Hari kulalui tanpa hadirmu lagi
Kucoba ingkari sepi ini
Mengapa terjadi, hancur kau akhiri
Satu kata janji tak kembali

S'ribu tanya sesak di dada
Haruskah bimbang meraja
Lelah tepis harapanku
Sendiri mencari bayangmu

Reff :
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun ku tahu
Kau jauh,ku tahu kau jauh

Biarlah semua seterti apa adanya
Kuterus mencoba,relakannya
Satu yang kuminta,kembalilah padanya
Ku tahu di sana, ada dia...

Kembali ke : Reff

S'ribu tanya sesak di dada
Haruskah bimbang meraja
Lelah tepis harapanku
Sendiri mencari bayangmu

Read and understand the lyrics. You'll might melt your heart out.I know it is touching to me.

Wednesday, 22 September 2004

It's been a while now..

Yes, I know. It's been quite some time since I last post anything here. Not that I intent to do it on purpose. I just don't know what really happened. Maybe, I just lost my perspectives of the world around this time. For the first time in my life, I have no enthusiasm on anything that I'm working on. I have no oppinion over anything that happens around me. I didn't even have the passion on the things that I do in the music industry. Worst of all.. I don't know what's next.

Maybe, it's normal. Maybe this phase is nothing to everybody. Maybe, I'm just exagerrating things here. But, I don't know. Maybe it's true.. Maybe it's not. AND Maybe, It's just me.

A very close friend just got back for the a short holiday from Jakarta last week. She's a close friend since her study days at Lim Kok WIng. An Indonesian, who borns, educated and brought up in Malaysia. Even the family is still in JB. It's nice to know how good she's doing in Jakarta. To Tessy, if you're reading this, (I know you've been to this blog before).. I'm sorry I didn't manage to spend more time with you, although my free time is 24 hours now. I'm sorry your much awaited trip back here is not an interesting one. I'm sorry that although I promised before that I'll bring you around and meet other old friends and places, I actually didn't do that at all (yeah.. lelaki. kalau dah setan tu setan jugak..).. Hope you have a safe journey back to Jakarta and hope the plan to work on the next year's tour will go as planned.

Other than that, a friend lend some money from me due to family matters, with promise that it will only take him a week to give me back the money. It's already going to the third week and no sign of him. Suddenly, he went missing. So, no exact job, no money to start working on some of the things and no thoughts of my own. Isn't life great. I'm practically a living Zombie. :)

Oh well... just consider this as an update. Not a good one though. You might hate me after reading this.

Saturday, 11 September 2004

Bring back a little smile... please..

Here's something for all of you. It has been a hectic emotional period these few weeks for many of us. Especially, when today is 9-11 to remind us of the tragic event in New York. Let's bring back some good smiles for the world.

In the jungle, the mighty jungle,
The lion sleeps tonight.
In the jungle, the quiet jungle,
The lion sleeps tonight..

Have a wonderful week ahead everybody. May God bless us all.

Thursday, 9 September 2004

COKELAT : Live in Kuala Lumpur

Hot Indonesian Band, Cokelat will entertain you with their powerful performance at thier concert this coming Saturday. Their first appearance in Malaysia was in 2003 at the AIM Awards. Guest band for the concert is our very own progressive rock band Def Gab C.

Cokelat, Winner of MTV Asia's Favourite Indonesian Artiste at the MTV Asia Awards in 2003 comprises of Kikan (vocal), Ervin (drums), Ronny (bass), Edwin (guitar) and Ernest (guitar). They'll be performing their hits from all their albums.

Details are as follows :-

DATE : 11th Sept 2004
TIME : 8:00pm
VENUE : Bukit Kiara Equestrian Park

TICKET PRICE : RM 52 / RM42 (students)

Tickets available at Axcess Hotline - 03-7491 9999 or visit

BE THERE!! You will not regret it.

Wednesday, 8 September 2004

Cyberia Cafe at West End London.

I should have put this entry up long time ago. Wrote sometrhing down, got mental block (like always) and have been a only a draft ver since.

Well, It's not that duplex condo at Cyberjaya. I'm not talking about that at all. (Although, if there's anybody could get me that place at a cheap price.. I'll consider). It's about history.. the first cybercafe (or Internet cafe or CC as you wish to call it) in the world opened at West End London on 31st August 1994, 10 years ago.

Although US claims to be the originator of the Internet and the first cybercafe was founded in UK, the founder of Cyberia Cafe is Eva Pascoe from Poland, a doctorate student stydying in cognitive psychology at Univesity of London. She also played basketball for the Polish national team. A true example of Internet for all, around the world.

To know more about this Cyberia Cafe and the founder. Do read this article by Eric Pfanner from IHT Online

So the next time you celebrate National Day and you feel there's nothing to celebrate about, think about it is also the date when the first Cybercafe in the world started. Maybe that could get you in the mood of celebration.


Tuesday, 7 September 2004

How's your temper? Is it that bad??

Since we did get into all these Zodiak traits and personality on the previous entry. Let's just go along with it and see what does the zodiak say about your temper.


Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologise, which makes them easier to forgive.

You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don’t know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you’ve made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

GEMINI MAY 21 – June 29
You are recognised by your cheerful disposition and your jovial nature is easily susceptible to anger. In fact, you are the best person to have around when there is an ugly scene at a party you can bring the warring factions together quite diplomatically. But when you lose cool, you yell and scream and will not listen to reason. You must have the last word in a wordy duel. Your capacity to argue aggressively is matched only by your seductive charm.

Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you. But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring. You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don’t care about opinions. You don’t like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot. But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet. When angry you can use critical language. A dressingdown can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever.

Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don’t quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.

Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, it’s true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know you better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

Of course you don’t lose your cool. But your very demeanour (manner) projects hauhtiness (arrogance, pride), pride and grand disdain (disregard) for lesser mortals (human). Others are often found saying that anger sits on your nose and you are raring to give your piece mind to the first person who try to be funny with you. You are selective in the choice of your friends, and have a low tolerance for the superflous (extra) types. Your tongue-lashing (attack) is generally in a soft hissing tone for when you scream, your voice tends to get shrill and loud and you do hate drawing attention to yourself! When upset, you are angrier with yourself for having shown weakness, for the last thing that Scorpio wants to show is being out of control.

You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. You’re also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you’re upset with them.

Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see thing with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.

You are noble and kind and dislike losing control over yur emotions. It is very rare for you to get angry. You are also the pacifier in situations that involve arguments. It is always your endeavour to be perfect and socially correct in your behaviour and attitude, but if misunderstood and slighted you can give in to an angry outburst. You will shout and scream and then walk out from the scene. You cannot easily forget the situation and will be bitter about it for a long time.

The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others’ feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.


What do you think? Does it really reflects you?

Friday, 3 September 2004

What does your heart say? Listen..

I came across this article about 'intuition' on one of the blog. I consider it as a beautiful piece of writing. Not due to the linguistic arragement of the piece, but as I read it, I feel like this piece have a heart of it's own.. READ IT... and give a thought..

If Only You'd Listen to Your Own Intuition by Hazel Hassan
Thu Aug 26 2004 12:15 AM

"I KNEW that was going to happen!" How many times have you heard those words come out of your own mouth? Probably plenty, if you're like most people.

We all possess something called "intuition". It's an inner 'knowing' which, when paid attention to, will help us make decisions and even prevent us from making mistakes!

Do you remember when you were in school and you had to take those dreaded multiple choice tests? How many times did you get an answer wrong because you had changed it from your original answer? I'll bet it didn't take long before you figured out you should always go with your FIRST instinct. That's because you really did know the correct answer, and your intuition provided it for you. Then, perhaps you doubted your insight and changed the answer.

Did you know that your brain, like a giant computer, stores all the data that is ever put into it? The problem is that most of us can only RECALL about 10% of that data at any given time. But, on occasion, your intuition kicks in and digs deep into the file cabinet of your mind to pull out a stored-away answer.

I'm sure you've experienced having a piece of information "right on the tip of your tongue". The data is in your head somewhere but you can't quite get it out. Sometimes it just takes a while and the answer will come to you a few hours later. It just sort of "pops in" when you're not even trying to remember it anymore.

Well, sometimes information will "pop in" as a warning or in answer to an unasked question. You get a "feeling" about something. Maybe it's just a "gut feeling" or maybe it's more like a premonition. Do you listen to it or ignore it?

It's very easy, in hindsight, to see where you could have prevented a problem or mistake by listening to your hunches. But how can you learn to use your intuition to give you answers or even evoke warnings BEFORE it's too late to do something about them?

1. Learn to listen to your own intuition. The voice within you speaks to you constantly, and you are usually just too busy to listen to it. When making major decisions, make a conscious effort to take some quiet time alone to hear what your inner voice is saying.

2. Never doubt your own intelligence and common sense. When your inner voice says, "watch out", learn to take heed.

3. Never feel, because you don't have a PhD or other fancy degree, that you are less capable than the next guy. The so-called gurus and experts don't have all the answers and don't always know what they're talking about. Just remember how many stock EXPERTS told people to buy Yahoo at $150 a share.

4. Remember that nobody knows you like YOU do. Your intuition is YOU talking to you.

5. Keep your own counsel. There's a reason your intuition gives you advice. Don't ignore it. You are your own best advisor.

Some people intentionally ignore their intuition. They doubt their own inner wisdom. They do things even though their intuition tells them otherwise. They make the same mistakes over and over again. Then they find themselves always saying, "I KNEW that was going to happen!"


So what do you think people? Any thoughts? and to Mommy Hazel.. wonderful thoughts like this will go a long way. My regards to you, your hubby and your 2 cute kids.

Monday, 30 August 2004

National Day.. Wish all of you the best.

Seems that I agree with the term National Day. Just a date where we celebrate every year in memory of the time when we got to govern the country on our own. But, the term 'Merdeka' or celebrating our indipendence is way over-rated... here's why I think that is so.

1. Much to our Merdeka, we are still under submission to other 'superior'. At the moment, most of us are 'living to work' and NOT 'work for a living'. We have to work when they wanted us to. Most of the time with no extra benefit, no overtime and no extra allowance. Instead of working to bring back income for the are getting income just enough to pay bills, pay all debts, some food and transportation cost to go back and forth the ofice. Time spend in the office are far more than at home... with the motto "be thankful you have a job right now. there are many people who are still looking for a job.." most employers will say that to you. Is that a threat?

2. While we should show the world what we are capable of when we're 'merdeka', we end up taking all that the others have to offer and treat our own things as rubbish. From culture, attitude, music, arts and even inventions.. to us, anything local is craps and anything from outside is good..merdeka?? (even some of us like hindustan and dangdut better than our own local flavour.) NOT ALL of the things from Malaysia is Bad.. and if you really have brains.. you should realise that.

3. In the matters of heart.. we are always in dilemma. Always have problems in making good decisions. And we tned to hold on to the bad past of our lives when we should have move on, plan for a better future and make the best out of the present situation. Seems that the past still chain us, and thus make all ou present decision going back to what we had in the past. Merdeka?

So, what is Merdeka anyway? I don't feel like I am Merdeka for now...For some reason, certain major things in life are still dictated by others..


Happy National Day people...

Saturday, 28 August 2004

TOP 10 : When You Think It's All Worth It.

Here's an article that I bumped into. Top 10 reason why you really fall in love with somebody and you're willing to go to the next step. READ and tell me what you think?

Top 10: Traits Of A Great Girlfriend
By Jonathan Carlson

I must admit that playing the field is a whole lot of fun, but so is being in a serious relationship -- provided that it's with the right woman. But how do you know if she really is the right woman for you? If she possesses the following 10 traits, you better hold on to her for dear life or, before you know it, a guy who already knows where it's at will get his hands on your "goods."

Number 10 : She's independent

No one wants a girlfriend they have to baby-sit. Once in a while, like if she's had a rough day at work, it's great to be her shoulder to cry on, but if she can't seem to function without you and is constantly after you, she will eventually make you feel like you're suffocating, which is a surefire way to get you running out the nearest exit.

On the other hand, if she has her very own personality and opinions, can stand on her own two feet, both financially and emotionally, and is able to enjoy time away from you -- while still missing you, of course -- then she must be a great girlfriend.

Number 9 : She's intelligent

I hate to be the one to tell you this, but the bimbo routine gets real old, real fast. A woman who can meet you at an intellectual level is a total turn-on. Instead of being the one in total control, you'll find yourself trying to figure out what she's really thinking behind those glazed eyes of hers -- or if she's actually thinking at all.

An intelligent woman will constantly surprise you and keep you on your toes. She won't let you get bored of her. Besides, it's nice to have something to talk about between all that chandelier-hanging sex.

Number 8 : She's sexual

While we're on the topic, a great girlfriend has to be sexually compatible with you. For instance, if you're into S&M and she's more the "fluffy lingerie" type, that's a problem. The two of you have to be on the same page -- or, at least, she has to be willing to wear leather and use a whip from time to time.

Of course, this doesn't imply that she has to know all the right moves straight away; it simply means that you and she have an undeniable attraction towards each other, and are able to communicate your desires verbally (or with physical cues). It is important that you please each other in the bedroom, or on top of the dryer -- whatever the case may be.

Number 7 : She's beautiful

I know, this one is kind of obvious, but important nonetheless. A great girlfriend will not only want to look good for you, but also for herself. She should always look her best and be well put together -- matching lingerie is a definite plus.

You have to be proud to have her on your arm and enjoy the sight of her in any light. And this doesn't mean that she has to be a Heidi Klum clone. Remember that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so if you think her full bottom or uncontrollable curls are beautiful, you're allowed.

Number 6 : She respects you

This is a biggie. Your woman must respect you. This means that she listens to you, even if she doesn't necessarily agree with what you're saying. And, of course, she never tries to demean or belittle you in any way, shape, or form.

A great girlfriend won't ever cause scenes in public or in front of your friends and family, and will always wait to discuss matters with you in private. If she respects you, chances are that she will behave in a tactful and diplomatic manner in most situations, which is definitely a good thing.

Number 5 : She lets you be a man

Do not -- I repeat -- do not get involved with a woman who tries to get you to eat cottage cheese and fruit for breakfast and insists that you give up poker night with the guys. You will end up resenting her more than you can imagine. A good girlfriend lets you be a guy in all your glory, poker night and all. If she's a great girlfriend, she'll even bring you and your buddies a couple of beers and make you some of her famous sandwiches.

She has to understand that men and women are different and should allow you to be yourself. Just like you wouldn't deprive her of going shopping with her best girlfriend, she shouldn't expect you to give up the guys for her.

Number 4 : She's nagless

There is nothing worse than a nag! A great girlfriend knows this and chooses her battles wisely. She knows when to speak-up and when to let it slide. You don't want a girlfriend who will give you the heights of hell for leaving a couple of dishes in the sink occasionally.

However, if you live together and you stay out all night without calling her, and she lets you have it, then you're setting yourself up for disaster. This is a situation that nobody would let slide -- not even a great girlfriend.

Number 3 : She gets along with friends & family

A great girlfriend will not only help your mom in the kitchen, listen to your dad's stories, and hang out with your friends, she will enjoy it. She'll make a real effort to get to know and love the most important people in your life. And she won't try to get you to ditch your best buds.

She'll actually empathize with your brother's getting dumped and suggest that you guys take him out to cheer him up. Not only that, but your friends won't roll their eyes and moan when you mention that she'll be joining you guys when she gets off work (yes, women like this do exist).

Number 2 : She loves you

If you have found a woman who loves you for who you really are and not who you pretend or try to be sometimes, you should definitely hang on to her. A woman who doesn't try to change you is hard to find. Of course, everyone has their slightly annoying habits that their mate has to contend with, but if she really loves you, she will be able to cope with these.

Another way to know if she really loves you is by observing the way she looks at you and treats you on an everyday basis. If the sight of you doesn't seem to faze her either way, and she doesn't really seem to care about what you have to say, she's either playing very hard to get, or sees you as just some guy. But if a surprise visit or phone call from you makes her light up, there's no denying that she loves you.

Number 1 : She makes you want to be a better man

Stop making that face... Any man who has a great girlfriend or wife will tell you that she makes him want to be a better man. She doesn't have to say or do anything; it just is that way. If you suddenly feel bad about how you treated your sister or find yourself trying to get your finances in order, you might want to think about your motivation for doing so. It could be love.

do you already have her?
So, if this list seems to describe your current flame, you, my friend, are styling. In fact, you are probably the envy of all of your friends, even if they tease you for losing your status as "king player."

However, if the woman you are dating is more like the polar opposite, then I don't think that getting serious with her would be in your best interest -- but you knew that already, didn't you?


so... what do you think? I know, that I on the Number 1 factor. I do have somebody in mind..

Wednesday, 25 August 2004

What's a Perfect Marriage.... Scientifically???

Come across this article. Funny though when I did say earlier Love is not something you can scientifically calculate. Somebody in UK did formulate a calculation for perfect marriage.. (thanks Lisa for pointing out this funny article)

GO ON... READ...

Why 32+27=A Perfect Marriage

Finding the perfect partner is only part of the equation for a perfect marriage. Turns out that if you want a life of wedded bliss, you must also marry at the optimum age.

And what is that age? According to a researcher in Great Britain, the answer is right here: M=Y+(1/e[X-Y]). That computes to 32 years old for men and 27 years old for women, reports London's Evening Standard.

This unusual bit of math wizardry is the handiwork of statistician Dennis Lindley, a professor at London's University College. He is confident his formula is so accurate that he says it will save marriages and reduce the divorce rate. If men and women know the optimum age at which to stop playing the field and start settling down, then they won't marry too soon or wait too long and be doomed to a loveless life.

This is his mathematical logic, according to the Evening Standard: To find an optimum marriageable age, subtract the earliest age at which you start looking for a partner (the professor assumes 16) from the latest age you would expect to marry (he says 60 for men, 46 for women), multiply it by a logarithmic formula (which works out at 0.36), and then add it again to your starting age.

FOR MEN:60-16=44
44 x 0.36=15.84

33 x 0.36=10.8

The mathematician turned love counselor advises, "In the run-in period, men are learning about ladies. But they mustn't do this for too long." Thirty-two years to be exact.


p.s.. So, if according to this.. I have another 2 years to go then.. AND I should find somebody who'll be 27 in 2 years.. woohooo... calculative indeed. :)


Tuesday, 24 August 2004

Here.. Laugh If Want To..


In a second grade sex education class,

a little girl asks,
"Teacher, can my momma get pregnant?"

The teacher asks, "How old is your mother?"

The little girl says, "Forty."

The teacher says, "Yes, your mother could get pregnant."

The little girl asks, "Can my big sister get pregnant?"

The teacher asks, "How old is your sister?"

The little girl answers, "Nineteen."

The teacher says, "Oh my yes, your sister certainly could get pregnant."

The little girl asks, "Can I get pregnant?"

The teacher asks, "How old are you?"

The little girl says, "I'm seven years old."

The teacher says, "No, you can't get pregnant."

The little boy behind the little girl gives her a poke and says, "See, I told you we had nothing to worry about."

Saturday, 21 August 2004

Go and ponder...

Here's an article by somebody I don't know who but the topic and the reasoning behind it does make you think. Go on.. read the article and give some thought to it. It might had happened to you before or you might experienced it now. Whatever the situation is.. I would say that he does have a point to ponder.

The one that got away

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with... and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that ALMOST got away. miss you too much.., but can't miss you anyless."
Amin Azlan

- END -

So.. what do you think? Wonder if you do have that somebody who got away? Wonder if you are the person who got away? Or maybe this thing might not happen to you yet.. but will it happen to you? Whatever your thoughts are.. for me.. the past is the past.. and I wish, I hope and I pray.. that the next relationship will not be it.... To Amin Azlan (whoever you are..) nicely put. This is a good piece.

Friday, 20 August 2004

Another old song to remember

Somebody just drop by this blog by coincidence. I pay a visit to her blog and found an beautiful old song.. Here's something from Radiohead. Another Brit genius in music..(Thanks Ninie..)

I MIGHT BE WRONG - Radiohead

I might be wrong
I might be wrong
I could have sworn
I saw a light coming home

I used to think
I used to think
There is no future left at all
I used to think

Open up, begin again
Let's go down the waterfall
Think about the good times and
Never look back
Never look back

What would I do?
What would I do?
If I did not have you?

Open up and let me in
Let's go down the waterfall
Have ourselves a good time
It's nothing at all
Nothing at all
Nothing at all

And the reason is...

Something for all of you on the pre-weekend mood. Happy weeekend everybody. (with hope I got something better to write later.. right now, I don't have anything better than this..)

THE REASON - Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something that I must live with everyday
And all the pain that I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is YOU

Wednesday, 18 August 2004

If Olympics were created in Tanah Melayu...

As the people of the world stop killing each other for a while and concentrating on competing in the's a thought of what would the main games be if olympics were created in Tanah Melayu... (thanks inspired the thought)

1. Galah panjang.. a game of 2 teams of 4 idiots running back and forth to cross 4 lines that was guarded by another team. We will save cost of game venue coz we could easily use badminton courts for the game.

2. Kuda Longkang .. this is the race of speed. not technology wise but you will win if the current of the longkang you're competing on is on your side. For the instrument to race.. you can either use big leaves, paperboat origami or maybe ice-cream sticks.

3. batu seremban / ceper tutup botol oren : the games need a balancing skills using your hands. precision is the skills that you need. While batu seremban is the ladies event. Ceper tutup botol oren is the men's event.

4. bola chopping .. here's another cost effective game. Using the football field and a used tennis ball.. the game can be played by as many people as you want. The objective is to throw the ball to any person that becomes your target as hard as you can. Those who can't stand getting hurt lose.

5. Zero Point ... the acrobatic skills competition. Although this game of jumping over strings of rubber bands are meant for womens event. we'll make exception to include it the the mens event.

These are just 5 example of what would the main games be if Tanah Melayu created the olympics. And that does not include Sabung Keris (as to fencing), kerbaustarian (equine for kerbau) and much more...

What say you?

Tuesday, 17 August 2004

Can I just hope...?

I hope that we live in a better world, where people can help depend on each other with no hidden agenda. Where we can trust people as who they are and they accepting us as who we are.

I hope that we could at appreciate life as something more than just work and being better in work. That what we work on is for the sake to enjoy it and appreciate it with our loved ones.. not sacrificng our loved ones for the sake of work.

I hope that we could think outside the box. That we appeciate talents and creativity. We appreciate all things new in life and not hesitated by it. That tradition should get us moving to be better not holding us back to where our people mentality are .. 30 years ago.

I hope that people appreciate us based on the merit of our personality, our mind and our attitude.. not on who we know, how we look like and what can we give them.

I hope that people will realize..some things are not meant to be evaluate by logic science and calculations. Creativity, talent, emotion and feelings are some of those things that should not be calculated. It should be taken based on gut instinct.

I hope that while we are being extra careful, we believe in the nice things of people. We don't like all bad deeds of people, but we reject the good things done by people as well..

I hope that the world is not as confused as it's already have right now..

JUST A HOPE..In the spirit of Olympics..

Sunday, 15 August 2004

Immortal am I ??..

I was entertaining a couple of friends who came from Singapore last Friday night. Manage to get into HRC without paying any cavor charge (thanks to my previous job in the music business). The band playing for this month is Sky High..a club band that from what I see, was mostly influenced by Heavy Metal and Classic rock genre.. As they start their 3rd session for the night (I arrive late.. miss the first 2 sessions) The only upto date hit they play was 'Here Without You' in the beginning and 'My Immortal' to end the session. In between.. they play 4 Metallica classics in a row. Gosh.. I felt like going to 'Tribute to Metallica' mini-gig. I'm a fan of Metallica myself, but don't bore us with 4 Metallica songs in a row..Unless you ARE Metallica..(unfortunately.. you're not)

After that.. went to supper. Sent my Singaporean friends back to their hotel and went home.. but one thing does not leave me.. 'My Immortal' is still playing in my head. AND it still plays in my head till now.. damn.. I guess I'll be driving to Tangkak with 'My Imortal' in my head..

In a lame attempt to drag all of you to the song.. here's the lyric..

my immortal- evenesance

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

AFTER READING THE LYRICS... alamak.. I'll be on low mood all the way to Tangkak la ni.. damn..

Friday, 13 August 2004

Is it true?

Here's an interesting issue raised on 8tv Quickie last night (yeah.. I do watch other channels too)

"Do girls actually fall for bad boys?"

Their argument was, it is obvious that bad boys like James Dean or Robbie William get more attention and easily attracted by girls. Unfortunate for the 'good guys'.. they will never have such chance as girls will only want to be just another friend.

I don't know how true is the argument but it does makes sense. A player will always get the girls attention no matter it's known to public he'll play their hearts out. Shaggy will still be fantasize by most girls although 'It wasn;t me' is a lame excuse when you got caught red-handed..

I didn't get to see the poll results of this issue on 8tv (obviously already change channel by then)

What say you??

Wednesday, 11 August 2004

Tribute to Halimi and Nora

I've known Halimi and Nora way back since 1999. By this week, they will be celebrating their 2 months wedding anniversary. I didn't go to their reception. Back then, I was very busy with work and had no weekends to spare (not that I regret for not having weekend's better than having nothing to do on weekends)

Halimi, was my collegue back then at Cyber Music Asia. Soft spoken guy, with creative talent that nobody that I know could compete. A mechanical engineer by qualification but choose to be a webmaster instead. Back then, most of the entertainment websites, Artists official site and Music Industry website was done by this guy. Until one day, he got a better offer and left the scene to join FSBM I-design as one of the specialist, where I got the chance to work there too as Media Editor thanks to his recommendation. (unfortunately, I'm not ready to be in Cyberjaya bro..)My job there last only for a less than half a year, as I rejected the offer as permanent staff.

it is thru him that I know Nora, sweet and high-spirit lady, who from I see.. was a perfect match for him. They share almost everything.. every single interest. she just graduated from MMU and from the way I see it.. She'll go far after this..

Interestingly, they met on a chatroom. Amacam chat on, a web portal that we used to work on back in those Cyber Music Asia days.. from there, it florish and now.. Husband and Wife.

Well.. to both of you.. I celebrate your anniversary. Making up the absence to both of your reception. (my fault..always been..) It's an honour to know both of you. It's a pleasure to see how both of you went through.. and thank you for being a friend.

Another thing... the WEDDING GALLERY was superb. Reflects the true love between both of least now I know who to look for if I need to create one myself.. (If laa.. only If.. not going to be any sooner..)

HERE'S TO HALIMI AND NORA.. May this is the beginning for a better tomorrow!